Happy post
Jul. 26th, 2007 11:37 pmI complain too much, don't I?
Rhetorical question :) I know I do.
It's funny, though, I don't feel or act as cranky IRL as I know my LJ comes off -- I'm really, genuinely happy and content most of the time. I just seem to take out my frustrations on my LJ, for which I apologize.
I am very happy I have DH, even though he's not here right now. In fact, having him in Texas makes me realize just how much I depend on him, and how much I adore him, and how lucky I am to have him in my life.
I am very, very happy to have my two children. Stephen has grown into such a thoughtful, loving, clever child -- he's a sweetheart, and melts my heart every day. Sophia is full of beans and enjoys a good "argument", but then comes and sits down on my lap and strokes my arm and says "I love you, Mommy!" a thousand times in a row. I'm so fortunate to have such lovely children in my life.
I'm practically delirious about #3, who, after all, has been fairly cooperative. Some nausea in the first tri -- sometimes even all-day -- but no actual throwing up, which was a plus. And although s/he's not palpable yet in any consistent way, I've been enchanted listening to his/her heartbeat every few days (for a moment) with the rental doppler. It's silly, but it gives me such a kick, even when s/he won't :) I can't wait to meet him or her, but at the same time, I really like being pregnant. I want to really hang on to every minute, since this will be our last baby for sure.
And although we won't have a real house for at least another 6 months, we have a really good apartment for the money; it holds everything we need (and more... must do some weeding) and has been a terrific place to birth and raise two children, and will be again for at least #3's birth. I wonder what our landlord would say if he knew I'd had two babies in the master bedroom? We've lived here for 7.5 years now, which is the longest I've lived in any single place my whole life, and yet it seems like the shortest. Time flies when you're having fun. And babies.
I'm very lucky to have a successful, manageable business, even if the manageable part is a bit of a cludge :lol: I love getting emails like "we love our sling!" and "here's a picture of the baby sleeping in his sling" and that's not even to mention all the positive emails I get about the crafts site. It really feels good to be able to help people out. And that goes double (triple?) for being able to donate to charities. I really get a special feeling when I do that -- probably the closest I get (besides listening to glorious music) to spirituality.
My family (parents, sibs, and my grandparents, though most are gone)-- they're awesome, and it could go without saying that I love them all and am so -- what's the atheist equivalent of "blessed"? -- to have them, but I'll say it anyway :) They've helped make me who I am, and I know I wouldn't be where I am now without them. When I think about my grandparents' lives compared to mine -- how much luxury we have that we usually take for granted -- it sometimes boggles my mind.
And while we're on that, luxury! Three good meals a day, warm (or cool, if it's summer) beds to sleep in, no worries about where our next meal is coming from or if our home will still be there tomorrow. Fresh water in abundance (at least in NH), not just for necessities, but for showering every day if we feel like it! Heck, computers! Being able to look up practically anything in moments, where it would have taken weeks to find similar information in the past, if it were available at all.
We are so, so fortunate. I try to remind myself of that every day, even if I don't always post about it :)
Rhetorical question :) I know I do.
It's funny, though, I don't feel or act as cranky IRL as I know my LJ comes off -- I'm really, genuinely happy and content most of the time. I just seem to take out my frustrations on my LJ, for which I apologize.
I am very happy I have DH, even though he's not here right now. In fact, having him in Texas makes me realize just how much I depend on him, and how much I adore him, and how lucky I am to have him in my life.
I am very, very happy to have my two children. Stephen has grown into such a thoughtful, loving, clever child -- he's a sweetheart, and melts my heart every day. Sophia is full of beans and enjoys a good "argument", but then comes and sits down on my lap and strokes my arm and says "I love you, Mommy!" a thousand times in a row. I'm so fortunate to have such lovely children in my life.
I'm practically delirious about #3, who, after all, has been fairly cooperative. Some nausea in the first tri -- sometimes even all-day -- but no actual throwing up, which was a plus. And although s/he's not palpable yet in any consistent way, I've been enchanted listening to his/her heartbeat every few days (for a moment) with the rental doppler. It's silly, but it gives me such a kick, even when s/he won't :) I can't wait to meet him or her, but at the same time, I really like being pregnant. I want to really hang on to every minute, since this will be our last baby for sure.
And although we won't have a real house for at least another 6 months, we have a really good apartment for the money; it holds everything we need (and more... must do some weeding) and has been a terrific place to birth and raise two children, and will be again for at least #3's birth. I wonder what our landlord would say if he knew I'd had two babies in the master bedroom? We've lived here for 7.5 years now, which is the longest I've lived in any single place my whole life, and yet it seems like the shortest. Time flies when you're having fun. And babies.
I'm very lucky to have a successful, manageable business, even if the manageable part is a bit of a cludge :lol: I love getting emails like "we love our sling!" and "here's a picture of the baby sleeping in his sling" and that's not even to mention all the positive emails I get about the crafts site. It really feels good to be able to help people out. And that goes double (triple?) for being able to donate to charities. I really get a special feeling when I do that -- probably the closest I get (besides listening to glorious music) to spirituality.
My family (parents, sibs, and my grandparents, though most are gone)-- they're awesome, and it could go without saying that I love them all and am so -- what's the atheist equivalent of "blessed"? -- to have them, but I'll say it anyway :) They've helped make me who I am, and I know I wouldn't be where I am now without them. When I think about my grandparents' lives compared to mine -- how much luxury we have that we usually take for granted -- it sometimes boggles my mind.
And while we're on that, luxury! Three good meals a day, warm (or cool, if it's summer) beds to sleep in, no worries about where our next meal is coming from or if our home will still be there tomorrow. Fresh water in abundance (at least in NH), not just for necessities, but for showering every day if we feel like it! Heck, computers! Being able to look up practically anything in moments, where it would have taken weeks to find similar information in the past, if it were available at all.
We are so, so fortunate. I try to remind myself of that every day, even if I don't always post about it :)